Hmm. I wonder what i've done wrong in my previous life and why am i suffering this now? Friends that was once close to me had already left me, except a few. I didnt know what i do wrongly, i treasured every friendship as if they're my part of life, but i didnt expect things to turn out so nasty you see.

The expected behaviour were no longer there. Then here's the qns: Is it true that one will do whatever it takes in order to achieve his goal? or like what ms chiew said, a relationship of convenience? Yea, sometimes academic did drive me crazy and i may did the wrong things, but i've already apologize and what else do you want me to do? If that's not the case, then i may have actually place too much emphasis on study and not in our friendship. I don't know, i wonder why my friends no longer support me on whatever i do. Yea maybe left the council who are always there for me, though not all but some. Jian Liang, kenneth, tee yang, rab, hui yi, clarissa, pei xuan are always there for me. Those who were close to me once... Sorry but i cant feel that closeness anymore (Most, not all)

Seriously, i really have no idea what's the definition of friendship. In one moment the whole world may be god damn nice to you, and perhaps the next morning you wake up, you'll find yourself in a deep shit where everybody have just shitted on you.

I dont know what's their expectation of me as a friend, maybe they want me to be perfect? But look, perfection is just like an asymptote, you can get close to it but you'll never get there. Those who studied math should get what i mean.

Sean Pean once said in the movie "I am Sam" - I've tried. I've tried my best. I tried and i tried and i tried and i tried but i could never get there ! People like you were born perfect, yet im born like this! What you expect me to do?"

I damn agree with this statement. You cant expect everybody to be perfect you see. Even well-known people like Obama does have his flaws too. Now you expect me to be perfect? Lol.


SOMEONE, PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO.