Its been a long time since i ever posted. Way too busy to blog and play already. Got nothing much to say also la. Feel that there's a certain distance between me and my friends again. I felt much closer to some of my council friends. They are a bunch of friendly people la.

I dunno. That feeling comes back again. I dunno what to do again. That empty and shallowness feeling is back again. Maybe i just need sometime to overcome it bah . Hope times heal everything =) But, i really dunno where to start. It's like a feeling that, you want to protect it, sort of a guardian angel, but you cant surface it out, and you need that kind of kind and love to be reflected back to you as well.? and you know what? People laugh at it when i said a similar story to them, its like a feeling like, a stone is thrown to your favorite window and it crashes that kind. I waited for one for 3 years and another one for 4 years. Yet there's isnt any outcome from it.

I really dunno. Can i like escape away from it? But when i look at other people how happy they are, i just feel that why am I so neglected and being forgotten? Ever since young, i have been doing all the dirty jobs, caring for friends, and making sure that my loved one is being protected from harms, but i was not being honoured. It's okay that i am being forgotten, but at least show some appreciation?

Maybe i should start running away from it. I know that running away is not the best solution. But, I just don't have the courage to face it. I really dunno what to do about it. Maybe studying and studying may deviate my attention away from all the troubles that i am facing now... But i really do not have a better solution to solve all the problems.

Maybe i just think too much again. Sigh.

Anyway, i will be away for China Trip from 4/7 to 10/7. Cya guys.