dunno la...
have been moody these few days
also feel tired and lonely lo
extreme tired and I need to study
no spare time liao le
then today hor
some people ask me why i am so quiet lo
how i am supposed to reply them this question?
"tired" is just an excuse...
really like to tell them the true
"I just dun like to talk, especially girls"
no hard feeling againest the girls la
but i just dun have the gut to talk to them
dunno why la
dunno how to communicate with them
just scared that i am just being lame or accidentally provoke them
maybe that's why lo
BUT i am not a gay
I am a boy who also have a feeling de
but no one just appreiciate it lo
haha...
then they ask me again.
am i really happy with what i am now.
i tell them "yes" but acutally it is "no"
why?
Most ppl see me as a happy go lucky guy
but actually no
have been acting in front of them
wanted to have some space to breathe too
but that's only happens at home
even at home
i also act in front of my parents
dun wanna them to worry about me
so usually use study to cover me from them
just feel that no one had really understand me de
my heart and my feeling just like a maze like that lo
filled with traps and dead mine
once they drop into it
there's no way they can understand me again
I'm just another weird boy la
with weird character de
there's no wonder why that when ppl see me
they will shun me
as if see a ghost lo
even my 3 yrs buddy, Bing Han
failed to understand me
how do i know that?
cus i also have act in front of him
to be a happy and lame guy
which i am not
maybe i am just another weirdest guy in they world bah
with a complicated life and attitude
